Growing up

3th May 2012
I finally managed to wake up early today since I already promised my mom that I would chat with her in the morning. I ask her what souvenirs should I get for her and also the family but I feel guilty using her money to buy them and I also feel guilty not buying anything. I think I will some food that only sell here in Canada. One more thing, I am not going to visit any relatives during this trip back to Malaysia. It is so damn embarrassing.

I almost felt asleep without writing this diary. It was almost 2am that time and I told myself that I must write a diary everyday so I switch on my laptop and planning to write one but suddenly I wanted to read this manga and I was so hook up with the story that I only started the diary at 4am... It really is funny...

I would need to properly plan how I want to learn things that I want to learn efficiently. I wasn't even able to finish 30 FM questions. But finally I know that I want to do a minor in computer science. I didn't know that programming is so fun and I love it. The reason I dislike computer in the first place is because every time I use the computer, it will surely hang and lack. Plus I am not a very patient person so in the end I got tired of it and decided that I hate computer. But that is not the case when I took computer science subjects here. Although coding every week is tiring but it is fun. I enjoy listening to the keyboard sound that I make every time I typed something into the computer and I like it more when it is really quiet in the night and only my thoughts and the keyboard sound accompany me. I like quite life although I also love some really noisy music....

Tomorrow me and my housemate are going out to settle other things that we need to settle before we go back to Malaysia. I already cancelled my appointment with the doctor so now I need to cancel union gas and wind service. Hope that the process is not that difficult.

Mom ask me if I need anything then I should email her so I told her I need a job and guess what she said. She asked me is it difficult? This is what you call "growing up". Although I realized it for a long time but the growing up process never stop eh. I am growing up and this is what a grown up needs to face and I need to face all the challenges that comes up to me.

I was asked a question "What is your aspiration?". I was really lost when I heard that question. I know it means what you want to do with your career in the future and to be honest, I know that I want to work in an office and I want to do a lot of projects that are challenging. I also have wild dreams like being one of the people that have a strong financial ability because I want to help future students like me who have to pay our way to the university while others get on to a scholarship so easily. I want to do more and learn more but what awaits me in the future and will what I expect be the same as what I will face in the future. That is really an unknown...

I am really hungry right now. I guess I will go to sleep after I finish this and settle everything nicely tomorrow. Pray that I will be success in getting an internship~