6th May 2012
Yesterday I went star gazing with some of my friends. We took the last bus to the University, slept there until three in the morning then head out to Columbia Ice Field. No one is there and I thought that some people must be there since the news forecast that there will be a meteor shower yesterday but I guess we were the ones that are excited with this whole thing. It was really cold out there. Even though I wore three layers of clothes but I guess that it is just not enough to handle the night whether in spring. We did managed to saw some of the stars moves and disappeared but I guess I was unlucky enough to miss the huge one with the tails. Two of my friends who saw it said it only lasted for about two seconds and they were lucky to be facing that direction that time. I wish I saw that but at least I was the first one to spotted three of the meteors last night and one of them are moving in the opposite direction to the rest of the meteor accompanied by another meteor parallel to it.
We stayed there until 4:30am when the stars are covered by the clouds. The moon is very bright that night as well so it actually make it hard for us to look at the stars. We also waited for the sun rise that was about 6:30am in the morning. Everything is tiring but worth it. We slept at the comfy lounge until 9:30am where Cedric woke me up to go home. I continue my sleep in my room but the temperature is so cold that I can't stop shivering.
Later today, we carried most of the luggage that we wanted to put at Kai Xiang house. There was so many luggage that it make it difficult to carried all onto the bus but me managed it after all even though the whether is super hot and I started to sweat after a few minutes of walk. When we were waiting for the second bus, I went to Starbuck Coffee to get some drinks but the queue is so long that it is impossible for me to wait in the line as the bus is leaving soon. But the deal is quite nice. Half price for the frappucino from 3pm to 5pm. Maybe I will go and get it tomorrow.
Finally tomorrow will be the day I left Canada and go back to Malaysia. It felt sad because going back is not easy. There are a lot of things that I need to pay attention and also a lot of other stuff to settle before I can really fly back without any worries. I hoped nothing goes wrong tomorrow...
I forgot to write a diary yesterday so I guess I have no choice but to deduct my allowance out. PD2 courses also begin already. I think I will try to finish the quizzes early so that I can have some free time at the end of the courses so that I can prepare for FM paper better. I did not go through C++ and FM for the past few days due to all the packing. But I am definitely taking it in August and I will pass the paper this time with a high score. Go for it and good luck!!
Sunday, 6 May 2012
Friday, 4 May 2012
Settle things
4th May 2012
I thought that today all I need to do is go to the University and settle everything that I need to settle. But I did not know that SMA had a lunch planned today. I joined them since Cedric and Bernice are joining. The foods are okay and everyone went silent when all of us are eating and the silent sure is strange.
I noticed that I talk a lot and I talk none stop sometime. I think I just like to talk sometimes but I still prefer to stay silent sometimes and not talk too much because when I talk about myself, it sounded like I am boosting myself. They asked me if I am going to the frees bee tomorrow and I say if Cedric is going then I am going. Thomas also informed us that there will be a light meteor rain tomorrow and I think I want to go with them although it is late night.
Thomas sure read a lot of different kind of books. As for me, I always prefer fiction rather than non fiction books. Every time I open a book that is full with facts, my concentration just go all the way out. I need to start with some easy factual book first before I starts going into deep ones.
Kane Chronicle looks like an interesting story book but I never got the chance to read it. I read all Percy Jackson books but I never managed to finish Kane Chronicle. I think I can continue to read that story once I got all my schedule settle. Maybe I can even continue reading The Vampire Assistant as well. I really want to write a story of my own but I know I lack the skill to write this kind of stories.
I sign in Lumocity yesterday since I also want to improve my brain. The games are pretty simple and I hope that I manage to increase my ability. Before I forgot, I need to cancel the union gas and wind plan on Monday before I head off to Pearson International Airport. I got around 3 interviews back in Malaysia and I hope they will still give me a chance to attend the interview so I really need to prepare my interview as soon as possible.
I don't think I will wonder off too far when I am in Hong Kong since the seniors say that the food inside the departure hall is expensive. I also need to change some of my currency to Hong Kong currency and some Malaysia currency. Better plan ahead before I got lost in the middle of no where.
I also need to buy some souvenirs tomorrow when I am in St Jacob. Maybe some maple syrup will be fine and also some ice wine chocolate. I won't spend too much money since this is not the money that I earned but it was mom money. And also I need to inform dad that I am going back to Malaysia. Maybe I will give him a surprise later but not on the day I arrive.
Good luck in getting a new job and never give up. Look up at all the seniors that go through all this challenging. Go for it!
I thought that today all I need to do is go to the University and settle everything that I need to settle. But I did not know that SMA had a lunch planned today. I joined them since Cedric and Bernice are joining. The foods are okay and everyone went silent when all of us are eating and the silent sure is strange.
I noticed that I talk a lot and I talk none stop sometime. I think I just like to talk sometimes but I still prefer to stay silent sometimes and not talk too much because when I talk about myself, it sounded like I am boosting myself. They asked me if I am going to the frees bee tomorrow and I say if Cedric is going then I am going. Thomas also informed us that there will be a light meteor rain tomorrow and I think I want to go with them although it is late night.
Thomas sure read a lot of different kind of books. As for me, I always prefer fiction rather than non fiction books. Every time I open a book that is full with facts, my concentration just go all the way out. I need to start with some easy factual book first before I starts going into deep ones.
Kane Chronicle looks like an interesting story book but I never got the chance to read it. I read all Percy Jackson books but I never managed to finish Kane Chronicle. I think I can continue to read that story once I got all my schedule settle. Maybe I can even continue reading The Vampire Assistant as well. I really want to write a story of my own but I know I lack the skill to write this kind of stories.
I sign in Lumocity yesterday since I also want to improve my brain. The games are pretty simple and I hope that I manage to increase my ability. Before I forgot, I need to cancel the union gas and wind plan on Monday before I head off to Pearson International Airport. I got around 3 interviews back in Malaysia and I hope they will still give me a chance to attend the interview so I really need to prepare my interview as soon as possible.
I don't think I will wonder off too far when I am in Hong Kong since the seniors say that the food inside the departure hall is expensive. I also need to change some of my currency to Hong Kong currency and some Malaysia currency. Better plan ahead before I got lost in the middle of no where.
I also need to buy some souvenirs tomorrow when I am in St Jacob. Maybe some maple syrup will be fine and also some ice wine chocolate. I won't spend too much money since this is not the money that I earned but it was mom money. And also I need to inform dad that I am going back to Malaysia. Maybe I will give him a surprise later but not on the day I arrive.
Good luck in getting a new job and never give up. Look up at all the seniors that go through all this challenging. Go for it!
Growing up
3th May 2012
I finally managed to wake up early today since I already promised my mom that I would chat with her in the morning. I ask her what souvenirs should I get for her and also the family but I feel guilty using her money to buy them and I also feel guilty not buying anything. I think I will some food that only sell here in Canada. One more thing, I am not going to visit any relatives during this trip back to Malaysia. It is so damn embarrassing.
I almost felt asleep without writing this diary. It was almost 2am that time and I told myself that I must write a diary everyday so I switch on my laptop and planning to write one but suddenly I wanted to read this manga and I was so hook up with the story that I only started the diary at 4am... It really is funny...
I would need to properly plan how I want to learn things that I want to learn efficiently. I wasn't even able to finish 30 FM questions. But finally I know that I want to do a minor in computer science. I didn't know that programming is so fun and I love it. The reason I dislike computer in the first place is because every time I use the computer, it will surely hang and lack. Plus I am not a very patient person so in the end I got tired of it and decided that I hate computer. But that is not the case when I took computer science subjects here. Although coding every week is tiring but it is fun. I enjoy listening to the keyboard sound that I make every time I typed something into the computer and I like it more when it is really quiet in the night and only my thoughts and the keyboard sound accompany me. I like quite life although I also love some really noisy music....
Tomorrow me and my housemate are going out to settle other things that we need to settle before we go back to Malaysia. I already cancelled my appointment with the doctor so now I need to cancel union gas and wind service. Hope that the process is not that difficult.
Mom ask me if I need anything then I should email her so I told her I need a job and guess what she said. She asked me is it difficult? This is what you call "growing up". Although I realized it for a long time but the growing up process never stop eh. I am growing up and this is what a grown up needs to face and I need to face all the challenges that comes up to me.
I was asked a question "What is your aspiration?". I was really lost when I heard that question. I know it means what you want to do with your career in the future and to be honest, I know that I want to work in an office and I want to do a lot of projects that are challenging. I also have wild dreams like being one of the people that have a strong financial ability because I want to help future students like me who have to pay our way to the university while others get on to a scholarship so easily. I want to do more and learn more but what awaits me in the future and will what I expect be the same as what I will face in the future. That is really an unknown...
I am really hungry right now. I guess I will go to sleep after I finish this and settle everything nicely tomorrow. Pray that I will be success in getting an internship~
I finally managed to wake up early today since I already promised my mom that I would chat with her in the morning. I ask her what souvenirs should I get for her and also the family but I feel guilty using her money to buy them and I also feel guilty not buying anything. I think I will some food that only sell here in Canada. One more thing, I am not going to visit any relatives during this trip back to Malaysia. It is so damn embarrassing.
I almost felt asleep without writing this diary. It was almost 2am that time and I told myself that I must write a diary everyday so I switch on my laptop and planning to write one but suddenly I wanted to read this manga and I was so hook up with the story that I only started the diary at 4am... It really is funny...
I would need to properly plan how I want to learn things that I want to learn efficiently. I wasn't even able to finish 30 FM questions. But finally I know that I want to do a minor in computer science. I didn't know that programming is so fun and I love it. The reason I dislike computer in the first place is because every time I use the computer, it will surely hang and lack. Plus I am not a very patient person so in the end I got tired of it and decided that I hate computer. But that is not the case when I took computer science subjects here. Although coding every week is tiring but it is fun. I enjoy listening to the keyboard sound that I make every time I typed something into the computer and I like it more when it is really quiet in the night and only my thoughts and the keyboard sound accompany me. I like quite life although I also love some really noisy music....
Tomorrow me and my housemate are going out to settle other things that we need to settle before we go back to Malaysia. I already cancelled my appointment with the doctor so now I need to cancel union gas and wind service. Hope that the process is not that difficult.
Mom ask me if I need anything then I should email her so I told her I need a job and guess what she said. She asked me is it difficult? This is what you call "growing up". Although I realized it for a long time but the growing up process never stop eh. I am growing up and this is what a grown up needs to face and I need to face all the challenges that comes up to me.
I was asked a question "What is your aspiration?". I was really lost when I heard that question. I know it means what you want to do with your career in the future and to be honest, I know that I want to work in an office and I want to do a lot of projects that are challenging. I also have wild dreams like being one of the people that have a strong financial ability because I want to help future students like me who have to pay our way to the university while others get on to a scholarship so easily. I want to do more and learn more but what awaits me in the future and will what I expect be the same as what I will face in the future. That is really an unknown...
I am really hungry right now. I guess I will go to sleep after I finish this and settle everything nicely tomorrow. Pray that I will be success in getting an internship~
Wednesday, 2 May 2012
Life is cruel
2nd May 2012
I woke up late again today. But luckily I was able to get a flight ticket yesterday and I was able to print out the flight details today. I was also able to fill up my water bottle after days without fresh water. So I guess everything is alright now.
Cedric just told me today that he was already accepted to do an internship with OCBC and he said he email his resume directly to the hiring manager and got the job without any interview. He was so lucky and I guess most of the people around me are very lucky. As for me, because I don't have any friends or relative that work in this field so I have to work hard and fight this was alone. Seeing how others are success really makes me jealous. But I think I will keep on fighting or maybe this is just another chance to let me plan my future again properly. So all I need to do now is to think positively and work harder than anyone else.
At first I thought that I was completely ready to pack and go back to Malaysia but now when I look around my room I realize that although most of my stuff are packed properly on one side but there are still a lot of things that I have not manage to stuff it into my bag such as my comforter and my pillows that I am using now. I also have a lot of clothes that need to be watched and packed before I go back and there are a lot of things that belongs to our house that haven't been at all as well. Guess the packing process starts again....
I applied to Maxis today and a few other company and my mom got a reply that they receive my resume from Maxis. I hope that I will be able to get an internship from the companies that I applied to. To be honest, some of my friends did not get an interview at all and I was able to get one interview so I do have a little luck but luck is not going to get me anywhere... Actually, how did mom manage her life when she was about my age???
When I look back at all the diaries that I had written so far most of them are so long that I doubt that I will have the patient to write them down on paper. But since I was typing it, things seems to be a lot easier. No one need to read my diaries and this is a diary after all but if someone did read it, I don't think it is that much of a big deal.
I called the health center today and the receptionist ask me to call back another time at 9am so I will do so first thing tomorrow morning but if I still can't contact them to cancel the appointment made on 31st May 2012, I will need to go directly to the health center and cancel it.
I want to surpass my friends so I want to be greedy and take more or study more paper than them. Preparing for FM paper and MFE at the same time, will it be alright? Also I need to continue my self learn on C++ and start on SQL. I will also need to learn more about Excel and also access. Guess the learning process will never end.
Life is cruel and things don't usually go the way that we want. From Big Windup, I learn that we can active three of our brain hormones every during meal time. First, we look on our food and think how tasty it is and we are able to eat such tasty food. This is focusing on the future. Then we concentrate on the present when we eat the food and taste how delicious it is. Lastly, we will be able to recall the tasty feel and the feel of satisfaction after we finish the food. That way we can train our brain to be more motivated and to concentrate more and also to be more positive thinking.
One more thing is that we can condition our self to do something. So if I were to condition myself on something so that I can concentrate on my study then I think I will be able to improve myself better. All of this is like training our muscle so if I do this everyday then I will be able to obtain a good habit and make a huge step ahead.
So work hard!! And one thing, I also learn about events and debugging in C++ today so the next lesson is tutorial three. Yes! I am getting more and more excited~~~~
I woke up late again today. But luckily I was able to get a flight ticket yesterday and I was able to print out the flight details today. I was also able to fill up my water bottle after days without fresh water. So I guess everything is alright now.
Cedric just told me today that he was already accepted to do an internship with OCBC and he said he email his resume directly to the hiring manager and got the job without any interview. He was so lucky and I guess most of the people around me are very lucky. As for me, because I don't have any friends or relative that work in this field so I have to work hard and fight this was alone. Seeing how others are success really makes me jealous. But I think I will keep on fighting or maybe this is just another chance to let me plan my future again properly. So all I need to do now is to think positively and work harder than anyone else.
At first I thought that I was completely ready to pack and go back to Malaysia but now when I look around my room I realize that although most of my stuff are packed properly on one side but there are still a lot of things that I have not manage to stuff it into my bag such as my comforter and my pillows that I am using now. I also have a lot of clothes that need to be watched and packed before I go back and there are a lot of things that belongs to our house that haven't been at all as well. Guess the packing process starts again....
I applied to Maxis today and a few other company and my mom got a reply that they receive my resume from Maxis. I hope that I will be able to get an internship from the companies that I applied to. To be honest, some of my friends did not get an interview at all and I was able to get one interview so I do have a little luck but luck is not going to get me anywhere... Actually, how did mom manage her life when she was about my age???
When I look back at all the diaries that I had written so far most of them are so long that I doubt that I will have the patient to write them down on paper. But since I was typing it, things seems to be a lot easier. No one need to read my diaries and this is a diary after all but if someone did read it, I don't think it is that much of a big deal.
I called the health center today and the receptionist ask me to call back another time at 9am so I will do so first thing tomorrow morning but if I still can't contact them to cancel the appointment made on 31st May 2012, I will need to go directly to the health center and cancel it.
I want to surpass my friends so I want to be greedy and take more or study more paper than them. Preparing for FM paper and MFE at the same time, will it be alright? Also I need to continue my self learn on C++ and start on SQL. I will also need to learn more about Excel and also access. Guess the learning process will never end.
Life is cruel and things don't usually go the way that we want. From Big Windup, I learn that we can active three of our brain hormones every during meal time. First, we look on our food and think how tasty it is and we are able to eat such tasty food. This is focusing on the future. Then we concentrate on the present when we eat the food and taste how delicious it is. Lastly, we will be able to recall the tasty feel and the feel of satisfaction after we finish the food. That way we can train our brain to be more motivated and to concentrate more and also to be more positive thinking.
One more thing is that we can condition our self to do something. So if I were to condition myself on something so that I can concentrate on my study then I think I will be able to improve myself better. All of this is like training our muscle so if I do this everyday then I will be able to obtain a good habit and make a huge step ahead.
So work hard!! And one thing, I also learn about events and debugging in C++ today so the next lesson is tutorial three. Yes! I am getting more and more excited~~~~
Credit card problem
1st May 2012
Today is actually labor day in Malaysia but it is not so in Canada. Classes actually starts today but since I woke up late and was a little lazy I didn't go to the classes. I know that I can't continue with this but my biological time is so wrong now. I won't be able to feel sleepy until three in the morning. I tried to sleep early but it just won't work.
I finally make my move to purchase the ticket to go back to Malaysia. I thought cheapoflight is reliable but after a few trial and a call to the center, they told me that the ticket sold off but the flight details and booking function is still on the webpage. From what I was told, the person whom I refer to tell me that the web page only changed once a day. Oh my God... Please hired a better IT employer and please please improve that webpage. This is just so wrong. I ended up booking the flight ticket through Expedia. It cost me around 1650 USD for the flight from Toronto to Kul on the 8th of May and return on the 8th of September. This is all so last minute but at least my flight is much more cheaper.
Since I decided to go back, I really need to think what I should buy for my family and what I want to do in Malaysia except getting an internship. Since I am back I think I will sit for FM paper and get a copy of MFE notes. I think I will also continue to learn C++ there and Maybe I will be able to start on SQL and other software. There is no way I will be such a loser again next work term and I want to ease my mother burden so I really need to be independent. Really really independent.
I think my credit card really got problem. I used it to book for the flight but nothing went through. At first I thought it was because I was booking from Canada. But it turn out to be that my credit card really got problem. Maybe Public Bank make a mistake again. I need to call and double confirm with them once I get back.
I also need to settle my Maybank online account. Then it would be easy for me to check my balance in the future. I also need to cancel Union Gas and my wind plan ASAP. I still need to go to the COOP office to drop a notice that I am going back to Malaysia. And I need to ask the adviser about taking 6 subjects. Wow, So many things to do in just a night time. I really am dead.
Three employer told me to go for an interview but since I am still in Canada I am unable to attend the interview right away. I am so hopeless... I should just go back to Malaysia and apply then I will have bigger chance to get that job even though it is just normal admin and business or finance job. Moreover, no other insurance company reply my application so I think I might as well think of other options instead of waiting for them... But I still want to have some hope in the job I applied and please please consider me as a potential employer. I am a hardworking and down to earth person....
I want to write a novel and that is something that I said for a long time already but I still not manage to do anything with or to be more precise, I don't know how to begin writing....
I manage to go for another tutorial in C++ and a few pages in FM. 2 more months till exam and I must work harder and harder.
Today is actually labor day in Malaysia but it is not so in Canada. Classes actually starts today but since I woke up late and was a little lazy I didn't go to the classes. I know that I can't continue with this but my biological time is so wrong now. I won't be able to feel sleepy until three in the morning. I tried to sleep early but it just won't work.
I finally make my move to purchase the ticket to go back to Malaysia. I thought cheapoflight is reliable but after a few trial and a call to the center, they told me that the ticket sold off but the flight details and booking function is still on the webpage. From what I was told, the person whom I refer to tell me that the web page only changed once a day. Oh my God... Please hired a better IT employer and please please improve that webpage. This is just so wrong. I ended up booking the flight ticket through Expedia. It cost me around 1650 USD for the flight from Toronto to Kul on the 8th of May and return on the 8th of September. This is all so last minute but at least my flight is much more cheaper.
Since I decided to go back, I really need to think what I should buy for my family and what I want to do in Malaysia except getting an internship. Since I am back I think I will sit for FM paper and get a copy of MFE notes. I think I will also continue to learn C++ there and Maybe I will be able to start on SQL and other software. There is no way I will be such a loser again next work term and I want to ease my mother burden so I really need to be independent. Really really independent.
I think my credit card really got problem. I used it to book for the flight but nothing went through. At first I thought it was because I was booking from Canada. But it turn out to be that my credit card really got problem. Maybe Public Bank make a mistake again. I need to call and double confirm with them once I get back.
I also need to settle my Maybank online account. Then it would be easy for me to check my balance in the future. I also need to cancel Union Gas and my wind plan ASAP. I still need to go to the COOP office to drop a notice that I am going back to Malaysia. And I need to ask the adviser about taking 6 subjects. Wow, So many things to do in just a night time. I really am dead.
Three employer told me to go for an interview but since I am still in Canada I am unable to attend the interview right away. I am so hopeless... I should just go back to Malaysia and apply then I will have bigger chance to get that job even though it is just normal admin and business or finance job. Moreover, no other insurance company reply my application so I think I might as well think of other options instead of waiting for them... But I still want to have some hope in the job I applied and please please consider me as a potential employer. I am a hardworking and down to earth person....
I want to write a novel and that is something that I said for a long time already but I still not manage to do anything with or to be more precise, I don't know how to begin writing....
I manage to go for another tutorial in C++ and a few pages in FM. 2 more months till exam and I must work harder and harder.
Tuesday, 1 May 2012
Friend's Birthday
30th April 2012
Today I almost forgot to write this diary. I was busy watching movie again but the movie is something that I already watch countless times...
Is Su Leng's birthday today. All of us went to her house to celebrate with her. We cooked spaghetti and fries while the other prepared soft drinks, pizza and cake. Its been a long time since I actually ate cake that taste like egg. So to say the cake ingredients are simple and it i the normal cake that me and my mom always baked.
The price for the flight ticket increased. I was so shock but surprisingly the ticket on the 8th April did not change that much. So do I want to go back or not??? This is a question that I will not be able to make up my mind to do.
I noticed it since the first day that I wrote the diary that I wrote a lot. I was in a dilemma thinking whether I should write my diary in a book or type it in a blog. Now, I think that I make a correct decision to write in on the blog. I actually save a lot of time and writing the diary down will actually make me more lazy and I tend to give myself more excuses to not write diary. Since I don't want to lose money, I really need to write it everyday. I once read it in a magazine that a lecture gave his student a task. If they are able to write a diary everyday none stop until the last day of class then he will give all of them an A. But no one success. Is it that difficult? A diary a day only took a few minutes like what I am doing now. I don't know whether or not I will be able to keep this up since I normally don't manage to discipline myself to do something that I plan out for myself and let's be honest here, I almost forgot to write this dairy as well.... Sad case....
At least I manage to learn a little about C++ today. I will continue the lesson tomorrow but I forgot to study FM today... I really need to set a strict time table for myself. Moreover, Cedric and Bernice are going for MFE already and I don't want to lose to them so let's study hard and play hard.
I think no I will go to statistic classes tomorrow. I want to get a head start on what I will be learning in the next academic term. I know that I am not the person that have a lot of luck. All of the things I achieved until now are all my hard work and it is a waste to throw away something that I work hard for a long time. It is like denying myself and throwing myself to the rubbish bin. I want to know myself more, improve myself more until I can reach my mom's level.
That is for today I guess. I will come back tomorrow...
Today I almost forgot to write this diary. I was busy watching movie again but the movie is something that I already watch countless times...
Is Su Leng's birthday today. All of us went to her house to celebrate with her. We cooked spaghetti and fries while the other prepared soft drinks, pizza and cake. Its been a long time since I actually ate cake that taste like egg. So to say the cake ingredients are simple and it i the normal cake that me and my mom always baked.
The price for the flight ticket increased. I was so shock but surprisingly the ticket on the 8th April did not change that much. So do I want to go back or not??? This is a question that I will not be able to make up my mind to do.
I noticed it since the first day that I wrote the diary that I wrote a lot. I was in a dilemma thinking whether I should write my diary in a book or type it in a blog. Now, I think that I make a correct decision to write in on the blog. I actually save a lot of time and writing the diary down will actually make me more lazy and I tend to give myself more excuses to not write diary. Since I don't want to lose money, I really need to write it everyday. I once read it in a magazine that a lecture gave his student a task. If they are able to write a diary everyday none stop until the last day of class then he will give all of them an A. But no one success. Is it that difficult? A diary a day only took a few minutes like what I am doing now. I don't know whether or not I will be able to keep this up since I normally don't manage to discipline myself to do something that I plan out for myself and let's be honest here, I almost forgot to write this dairy as well.... Sad case....
At least I manage to learn a little about C++ today. I will continue the lesson tomorrow but I forgot to study FM today... I really need to set a strict time table for myself. Moreover, Cedric and Bernice are going for MFE already and I don't want to lose to them so let's study hard and play hard.
I think no I will go to statistic classes tomorrow. I want to get a head start on what I will be learning in the next academic term. I know that I am not the person that have a lot of luck. All of the things I achieved until now are all my hard work and it is a waste to throw away something that I work hard for a long time. It is like denying myself and throwing myself to the rubbish bin. I want to know myself more, improve myself more until I can reach my mom's level.
That is for today I guess. I will come back tomorrow...
Monday, 30 April 2012
Going back?
29th April 2012
April is coming to an end soon and I still unable to secure a job. May be I should really go back to Malaysia. I miss my parents of course. Although I didn't contact them as much as my housemates does but that was because I got used of that kind of living in Seseri. That 2 years inside Seseri really helps me how to survive my life here independently.
I got rejected by a job today. There was a lot of job opportunity out there but I just could not get hold on one. I need to admit that my qualification and software knowledge is not enough. I am trying to improve myself here. But now the main point is to get a job just like what the adviser told me to but I really want to get a job that can help me to apply what I learn in University on real life. My mom told me to get some promoter or sales job but I think if I do that now the same thing will happen again on the next job search so I really need to land myself on a job that is totally different to the job that I did back then. This is how I can improve myself.
I also want to go back to Malaysia to visit my parents and most of all to celebrate mother's day and father's day. The seniors told us that this is the only time we can go back to Malaysia. After that we will not be able to go back as much as we want for the rest of the years. Should I go back???
Actsc 371 result was released today and I only score 75%. This is the worst mark that I obtained in my whole academic life.... I did get mark that are lower than this but since this is the major that I choose I should have work hard for it and I have no excuse that I can make for scoring this kind of mark. This is my punishment and I will not lose in the next academic term.
Sometime I wish that I join more activities. I really want to have friends or teammates just like the one in Big Windup. Seeing how they support each other really is something that I want to have and I believe it is something that every one wants. A friend that is able to be by your sides and understand you all the time. Maybe I am not the type of person that would give my trust to just anybody. I may told you a lot of things about myself. But my most deepest secret will only be with myself. Until I found the one that I really trust....
We had Wendy's today. Well to be honest, it is not as good as Burger King in my opinion but Cedric thinks that it worth better than Burger King. Anyway, all of us have different taste and preference so that is fine. They also did a sort of personality test at Wendy's and it turns out that I am a rational person. I mean I am rational and I am not a person that would judge depends on my feelings so Cedric suggest that I change my alarm to emotional questions instead of mathematical questions. Yeah, like that kind of questions exists.
I did manage to read 10 pages of FM today. I really need to work hard more and more. Failing one time is enough. I don't want to fail for the second time. I already wrote down the timetable for spring classes and I think I want take 6 subject in fall. Maybe I should ask the adviser opinion because I really want to take computer science and chemistry is only offered as an online course so what's the point in staying in University but you are doing an online course. Just asking won't harm I think. I think....
April is coming to an end soon and I still unable to secure a job. May be I should really go back to Malaysia. I miss my parents of course. Although I didn't contact them as much as my housemates does but that was because I got used of that kind of living in Seseri. That 2 years inside Seseri really helps me how to survive my life here independently.
I got rejected by a job today. There was a lot of job opportunity out there but I just could not get hold on one. I need to admit that my qualification and software knowledge is not enough. I am trying to improve myself here. But now the main point is to get a job just like what the adviser told me to but I really want to get a job that can help me to apply what I learn in University on real life. My mom told me to get some promoter or sales job but I think if I do that now the same thing will happen again on the next job search so I really need to land myself on a job that is totally different to the job that I did back then. This is how I can improve myself.
I also want to go back to Malaysia to visit my parents and most of all to celebrate mother's day and father's day. The seniors told us that this is the only time we can go back to Malaysia. After that we will not be able to go back as much as we want for the rest of the years. Should I go back???
Actsc 371 result was released today and I only score 75%. This is the worst mark that I obtained in my whole academic life.... I did get mark that are lower than this but since this is the major that I choose I should have work hard for it and I have no excuse that I can make for scoring this kind of mark. This is my punishment and I will not lose in the next academic term.
Sometime I wish that I join more activities. I really want to have friends or teammates just like the one in Big Windup. Seeing how they support each other really is something that I want to have and I believe it is something that every one wants. A friend that is able to be by your sides and understand you all the time. Maybe I am not the type of person that would give my trust to just anybody. I may told you a lot of things about myself. But my most deepest secret will only be with myself. Until I found the one that I really trust....
We had Wendy's today. Well to be honest, it is not as good as Burger King in my opinion but Cedric thinks that it worth better than Burger King. Anyway, all of us have different taste and preference so that is fine. They also did a sort of personality test at Wendy's and it turns out that I am a rational person. I mean I am rational and I am not a person that would judge depends on my feelings so Cedric suggest that I change my alarm to emotional questions instead of mathematical questions. Yeah, like that kind of questions exists.
I did manage to read 10 pages of FM today. I really need to work hard more and more. Failing one time is enough. I don't want to fail for the second time. I already wrote down the timetable for spring classes and I think I want take 6 subject in fall. Maybe I should ask the adviser opinion because I really want to take computer science and chemistry is only offered as an online course so what's the point in staying in University but you are doing an online course. Just asking won't harm I think. I think....
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