Going back?

29th April 2012
April is coming to an end soon and I still unable to secure a job. May be I should really go back to Malaysia. I miss my parents of course. Although I didn't contact them as much as my housemates does but that was because I got used of that kind of living in Seseri. That 2 years inside Seseri really helps me how to survive my life here independently.

I got rejected by a job today. There was a lot of job opportunity out there but I just could not get hold on one. I need to admit that my qualification and software knowledge is not enough. I am trying to improve myself here. But now the main point is to get a job just like what the adviser told me to but I really want to get a job that can help me to apply what I learn in University on real life. My mom told me to get some promoter or sales job but I think if I do that now the same thing will happen again on the next job search so I really need to land myself on a job that is totally different to the job that I did back then. This is how I can improve myself.

I also want to go back to Malaysia to visit my parents and most of all to celebrate mother's day and father's day. The seniors told us that this is the only time we can go back to Malaysia. After that we will not be able to go back as much as we want for the rest of the years. Should I go back???

Actsc 371 result was released today and I only score 75%. This is the worst mark that I obtained in my whole academic life.... I did get mark that are lower than this but since this is the major that I choose I should have work hard for it and I have no excuse that I can make for scoring this kind of mark. This is my punishment and I will not lose in the next academic term.

Sometime I wish that I join more activities. I really want to have friends or teammates just like the one in Big Windup. Seeing how they support each other really is something that I want to have and I believe it is something that every one wants. A friend that is able to be by your sides and understand you all the time. Maybe I am not the type of person that would give my trust to just anybody. I may told you a lot of things about myself. But my most deepest secret will only be with myself. Until I found the one that I really trust....

We had Wendy's today. Well to be honest, it is not as good as Burger King in my opinion but Cedric thinks that it worth better than Burger King. Anyway, all of us have different taste and preference so that is fine. They also did a sort of personality test at Wendy's and it turns out that I am a rational person. I mean I am rational and I am not a person that would judge depends on my feelings so Cedric suggest that I change my alarm to emotional questions instead of mathematical questions. Yeah, like that kind of questions exists.

I did manage to read 10 pages of FM today. I really need to work hard more and more. Failing one time is enough. I don't want to fail for the second time. I already wrote down the timetable for spring classes and I think I want take 6 subject in fall. Maybe I should ask the adviser opinion because I really want to take computer science and chemistry is only offered as an online course so what's the point in staying in University but you are doing an online course. Just asking won't harm I think. I think....