29th April 2012
April is coming to an end soon and I still unable to secure a job. May be I should really go back to Malaysia. I miss my parents of course. Although I didn't contact them as much as my housemates does but that was because I got used of that kind of living in Seseri. That 2 years inside Seseri really helps me how to survive my life here independently.
I got rejected by a job today. There was a lot of job opportunity out there but I just could not get hold on one. I need to admit that my qualification and software knowledge is not enough. I am trying to improve myself here. But now the main point is to get a job just like what the adviser told me to but I really want to get a job that can help me to apply what I learn in University on real life. My mom told me to get some promoter or sales job but I think if I do that now the same thing will happen again on the next job search so I really need to land myself on a job that is totally different to the job that I did back then. This is how I can improve myself.
I also want to go back to Malaysia to visit my parents and most of all to celebrate mother's day and father's day. The seniors told us that this is the only time we can go back to Malaysia. After that we will not be able to go back as much as we want for the rest of the years. Should I go back???
Actsc 371 result was released today and I only score 75%. This is the worst mark that I obtained in my whole academic life.... I did get mark that are lower than this but since this is the major that I choose I should have work hard for it and I have no excuse that I can make for scoring this kind of mark. This is my punishment and I will not lose in the next academic term.
Sometime I wish that I join more activities. I really want to have friends or teammates just like the one in Big Windup. Seeing how they support each other really is something that I want to have and I believe it is something that every one wants. A friend that is able to be by your sides and understand you all the time. Maybe I am not the type of person that would give my trust to just anybody. I may told you a lot of things about myself. But my most deepest secret will only be with myself. Until I found the one that I really trust....
We had Wendy's today. Well to be honest, it is not as good as Burger King in my opinion but Cedric thinks that it worth better than Burger King. Anyway, all of us have different taste and preference so that is fine. They also did a sort of personality test at Wendy's and it turns out that I am a rational person. I mean I am rational and I am not a person that would judge depends on my feelings so Cedric suggest that I change my alarm to emotional questions instead of mathematical questions. Yeah, like that kind of questions exists.
I did manage to read 10 pages of FM today. I really need to work hard more and more. Failing one time is enough. I don't want to fail for the second time. I already wrote down the timetable for spring classes and I think I want take 6 subject in fall. Maybe I should ask the adviser opinion because I really want to take computer science and chemistry is only offered as an online course so what's the point in staying in University but you are doing an online course. Just asking won't harm I think. I think....
Monday, 30 April 2012
Sunday, 29 April 2012
Privacy
28th April 2012
Today I finally get to MSN with mom. I don't know what I should do amount my current situation. Of course I wanted a job in Canada and I wanted a job in IBM so badly that I apply for almost all the intern position that IBM offered. But until now, none reply me. I did go online and apply for more intern position in Malaysia Insurance company but I really don't know how long will it take them to view my resume and cover letter.
To be honest, actually I am someone that enjoys a quite life. I wanted to have a space where I can do my own things without worrying about other people constantly observing me. That is why I actually don't like other people sleeping in my room. Once or twice is fine by me but if someone other than Yng was to share the same bed with me and to share the same privacy space with me is not so comfortable with me. I don't recall talking so much when I am with Syuhada and Yng. I do talk to them but it won't be something boring and only concern myself. To me, if I were to really relax around a person, then I can just stay silent besides them without any concern. But after Syuhada, I really could not find another friend that can actually make me that relax and be myself. Syu I really miss you.....
I managed to study some FM today. Maybe the materials are something that I learned before so I find it easy to understand and not so boring to read but I still can't concentrate well so I really need to train my brain to concentrate more.
My housemate are talking about going to some of the classes on Monday and I also want to join some classes to get a head start on what I will be taking next academic term. Stat 330, 331, Actsc 232, 372 and also Chem 123. I'm considering about Computer Science but I don't know what subject that I can take after CS116. Maybe I should go for CS136 before I proceed further but then how many term that I still have.....
I said I would begin with C++ program but is it something that I need to download or something that I can just use from Scheme and Python??? Guess that needs more research.
Please please please, I need a job fast. I really don't want to be the only unemployed internship student... I guess I will really cry but believe in the Secret. I can do it. I will definitely get a job within this week and it will be a Canada job that I waited for a long time. Believe in my myself and keep on releasing this wave. Oh, I also need to get ready for interview as well. I don't want the same thing to happen again where I was offered an interview but I screwed it up because of lack of preparation and confident.
That's it for today, I will need to really finish off Chapter 1 of FM and also C++ and try applying for more job!!! Good luck. Gambate!!!
Today I finally get to MSN with mom. I don't know what I should do amount my current situation. Of course I wanted a job in Canada and I wanted a job in IBM so badly that I apply for almost all the intern position that IBM offered. But until now, none reply me. I did go online and apply for more intern position in Malaysia Insurance company but I really don't know how long will it take them to view my resume and cover letter.
To be honest, actually I am someone that enjoys a quite life. I wanted to have a space where I can do my own things without worrying about other people constantly observing me. That is why I actually don't like other people sleeping in my room. Once or twice is fine by me but if someone other than Yng was to share the same bed with me and to share the same privacy space with me is not so comfortable with me. I don't recall talking so much when I am with Syuhada and Yng. I do talk to them but it won't be something boring and only concern myself. To me, if I were to really relax around a person, then I can just stay silent besides them without any concern. But after Syuhada, I really could not find another friend that can actually make me that relax and be myself. Syu I really miss you.....
I managed to study some FM today. Maybe the materials are something that I learned before so I find it easy to understand and not so boring to read but I still can't concentrate well so I really need to train my brain to concentrate more.
My housemate are talking about going to some of the classes on Monday and I also want to join some classes to get a head start on what I will be taking next academic term. Stat 330, 331, Actsc 232, 372 and also Chem 123. I'm considering about Computer Science but I don't know what subject that I can take after CS116. Maybe I should go for CS136 before I proceed further but then how many term that I still have.....
I said I would begin with C++ program but is it something that I need to download or something that I can just use from Scheme and Python??? Guess that needs more research.
Please please please, I need a job fast. I really don't want to be the only unemployed internship student... I guess I will really cry but believe in the Secret. I can do it. I will definitely get a job within this week and it will be a Canada job that I waited for a long time. Believe in my myself and keep on releasing this wave. Oh, I also need to get ready for interview as well. I don't want the same thing to happen again where I was offered an interview but I screwed it up because of lack of preparation and confident.
That's it for today, I will need to really finish off Chapter 1 of FM and also C++ and try applying for more job!!! Good luck. Gambate!!!
Friday, 27 April 2012
Diary
27th April 2012
Today I slept in late because I slept at 4am yesterday night. Me and my housemates are staying up watching the movie regarding Facebook. It was a nice movie but there was a lot of dialogues for each characters and there are no subtitle for that movie. Anyway, we didn't manage to finish the movie as most of us are tired yesterday and two out of four of us slept at the beginning of the movie. So sad....
I planned to go to the library to borrow the book regarding C++ today but since I woke up late I didn't bother to go to the library. I didn't even get to study FM paper and I was lazy to do anything. Moreover, my jobless situation really is depressing and no one even reply any of my application. I applied for more job through Jobmine but no one contacted me. Do I still need to put hopes in it or should I listen to my mom and go back to Malaysia??? Really lost here....
Cedric decided to cook something different today. He cooked ABC soup and the large proportion will last us three days I think. But I still prefer soup that tasted a little salty and more ingredients. Maybe I should add some salt tomorrow.
I wrote this while listening to Big Windup episode 4 The Play. I really enjoy watching this anime and it doesn't ever bored me although I already memorize the plot and the setting. I like it when Mihashi pitched. It make me feels that as long as I work hard then I will be able to get some satisfaction. Although things don't always work out the way I want it to but that means that I can still work hard for it. Fun har?
My results are releasing one by one. I was a little depress with my results but I guess I deserved what I got because I did not managed to put it all in this semester. It is my first work term and I was distracted by some movie, anime and manga. I know I should stop this and focus on my education more. I need to pull it back to my normal study etiquette. I am not losing to any of them anymore. No more...
From Big Windup I learned that we need to focus on the future, concentrate on the present and think back to the past in order to activate our brain. This way I can improve my concentration and my will power. I am going to sit for my FM paper in August no matter what and this time I am going to pass the exam in one go. No more failing as every paper is expensive and most of them are going forward faster and faster. I don't want to lose out no matter what.
I need to learn C++, SQL, SPSS, Excel, Access and some other software program to improve myself. Let's set a rule. I must write this diary everyday and if I didn't do it I will need to minus CAD5 from my daily allowance. I also must study for FM paper and I definitely will not lose to any of them anymore.
Work hard and study hard. I will achieved what I planned in life and I must take responsibility for my own life. Work Hard snownovel....
Today I slept in late because I slept at 4am yesterday night. Me and my housemates are staying up watching the movie regarding Facebook. It was a nice movie but there was a lot of dialogues for each characters and there are no subtitle for that movie. Anyway, we didn't manage to finish the movie as most of us are tired yesterday and two out of four of us slept at the beginning of the movie. So sad....
I planned to go to the library to borrow the book regarding C++ today but since I woke up late I didn't bother to go to the library. I didn't even get to study FM paper and I was lazy to do anything. Moreover, my jobless situation really is depressing and no one even reply any of my application. I applied for more job through Jobmine but no one contacted me. Do I still need to put hopes in it or should I listen to my mom and go back to Malaysia??? Really lost here....
Cedric decided to cook something different today. He cooked ABC soup and the large proportion will last us three days I think. But I still prefer soup that tasted a little salty and more ingredients. Maybe I should add some salt tomorrow.
I wrote this while listening to Big Windup episode 4 The Play. I really enjoy watching this anime and it doesn't ever bored me although I already memorize the plot and the setting. I like it when Mihashi pitched. It make me feels that as long as I work hard then I will be able to get some satisfaction. Although things don't always work out the way I want it to but that means that I can still work hard for it. Fun har?
My results are releasing one by one. I was a little depress with my results but I guess I deserved what I got because I did not managed to put it all in this semester. It is my first work term and I was distracted by some movie, anime and manga. I know I should stop this and focus on my education more. I need to pull it back to my normal study etiquette. I am not losing to any of them anymore. No more...
From Big Windup I learned that we need to focus on the future, concentrate on the present and think back to the past in order to activate our brain. This way I can improve my concentration and my will power. I am going to sit for my FM paper in August no matter what and this time I am going to pass the exam in one go. No more failing as every paper is expensive and most of them are going forward faster and faster. I don't want to lose out no matter what.
I need to learn C++, SQL, SPSS, Excel, Access and some other software program to improve myself. Let's set a rule. I must write this diary everyday and if I didn't do it I will need to minus CAD5 from my daily allowance. I also must study for FM paper and I definitely will not lose to any of them anymore.
Work hard and study hard. I will achieved what I planned in life and I must take responsibility for my own life. Work Hard snownovel....
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